My current project is to edit a book on child-raising. This is funny.
Some of you may not know this, but I’m not real good with children. I never wanted to produce any; the day my ex-fiancée told me very seriously that she was pregnant, shortly thereafter revealing that it was a joke, ha ha, something broke inside me and I never trusted her again. I have recently learned that I can enjoy being around good children for about three or four hours. I can endure them for three or four more, after which I need a couple days in a bar. If they are relatives it’s easier, but only to a point. If they are not exceptionally well-behaved, it’s excruciating. In short, perfect kids about whom I authentically care are difficult enough for me. The other billion are rather harder.
I did not ask to be this way, and it’s not something I’m glad for or proud of. It’s very inconvenient to be missing the gene that says kids are inherently cute and funny no matter whether they are attempting to start fires, defecating in their pants, doing something that they have discovered will frustrate adults, or making a crayon drawing of your pet. My life would be much easier if I liked being around them all, and I have tried to like it. It’s like trying to like a food you must force down. It is like telling yourself that discomfort is joy, edginess is relaxation, cardboard is food. I wish them great educations, lots of adventures, good friends, drug avoidance, full safety and very happy lives, with which I’m increasingly willing to intersect as they age toward maturity. If I had to work at a school, I would rather be the night janitor than a teacher. Night janitors perform a key job to help education happen, and by then the kids would be gone, rather than in my classroom torturing me, knowing that I couldn’t actually discipline them and they could get away with making my job hell. People know when they hit a vulnerable spot, and kids learn it early, long before most of them learn that gratuitous cruelty is not a character strength.
When my wife wants to mess with me, she talks about starting a daycare in our house. She thinks it’s funny. Yuk yuk, what a card. Everyone slap your knees.
As for me, I think it’s pretty funny that I am now editing a book on parenting.
The authors made a good choice in the sense that I’m completely unequipped to debate their parenting concepts. Life has taught me that ‘bad mommy’ is this enormous bugaboo for mothers. They’ll come to blows with the one who even implies Bad Mommy. They’ll yowl that they are Good Mommies, even if their junior Satans are out-of-control unbearable (not just to me, but to normal people). They’ll follow obsessive, fearful childcare regimes in order to avoid even a hint of Bad Mommy. Not that they don’t also do much out of pure maternal love, of course; surely so. I’m not saying that Bad Mommy drives all their decisions. I am saying that in many cases, I smell fear as an additional motivator.
Bad Mommy is even a pack behavior. I used to write for a product review site called Epinions. At Epinions, there was a clique I called the Mommy Platoon. The Mommy Platoon could give you 1000 words on a diaper pail without giggling. Sippy cups were serious business. They kept offsite message boards dedicated to gang-rating reviews they deemed to take parenting insufficiently seriously. They said appalling things to people in comments. Singly, they were cravens, but with the company of a cult of mutual reassurance, they found a form of gangster courage. One of their most devastating bullying weapons was Bad Mommy, used without remorse to bring other women to tears, simply for seeing parenting differently. A number of us, with goodwill and empathy, wrote reviews that made light of parenting and its issues and products, honestly hoping to bring the readership (including the Mommy Platoon) a few good laughs. Laugh about parenting? That was as popular with the Mommy Platoon as bomb jokes are with airport security. I think a majority of the mothers at the site despised the Mommy Platoon. In the end, a key factor driving many of us away from Epinions was this Mommy Platoon, which evidently never learned the lesson mentioned above about gratuitous cruelty. One lesson I took away from that experience was just how dramatically Bad Mommy will influence a mother’s actions and outlook. I feel for them. I’d hate to have that hanging over me.
Bad Mommy is probably a positive thing in at least one sense. Motherhood is exhausting and endless, and it doesn’t have very many breaks. Perhaps when parenting needs doing in spite of how she feels, at times, Bad Mommy is the lash that drives her onward to do what is needed in spite of her being her own person with her own pains, emotions, desires, and so on. I’m glad I don’t know for sure. I wouldn’t want her job. I could in no way do it, and I marvel that she can.
So I’m editing a parenting book. Here’s the thing: my complete ignorance of the subject is an asset to the authors. I can play my position, which is to fix anything that is flawed about the way they have presented their ideas (as opposed to the ideas themselves). Their parenting advice sounds pretty smart to me, and I think it’ll be a great book; my job is to do my all to help that be so. They must find it a blessed relief that I have zero temptation to debate parenting with them, in much the same way as I have zero temptation to debate Sanskrit translation with lifelong Sanskrit scholars or fly-fishing techniques with a lifelong fisherman. They tell me their previous editor (who sounds very Mommy Platoon to me) fired them and said she would pray for them. I’m impressed that this did not dissuade them. When they sent me the sample chapter to see how I’d handle it, they deliberately picked the most controversial one, just to see how I’d react. When I learned that they had done this, they impressed me more.
I like the project. The authors have a very good sense of humor. I can’t imagine them in the Epinions Mommy Platoon. Along the way, I’ll teach them some stuff. You can divide aspiring writers into two categories: those who want to improve, and those who want to be Frosted Flakes with the reader/reviewer/editor as Tony the Tiger. These ladies are serious about it, which means they have a very real chance to get somewhere with the written word.
Here’s to all moms. They have a hard job.
4 thoughts on “Editing a book on child-raising…me, of all people”
Very insightful. The Mommy Platoons of the world can all go fuck themselves. Raising my kids, I always told myself that so long as I got them to adulthood without an addiction, a prison record or a child of their own, I did my job to the best of my ability. It always drove them crazy that I called myself ‘adequate mother’.
I hope you’ll reveal the book once published so I can get a copy for my son & DIL.
Thank you, Shannon. And yes, soon as it’s buyable, I’ll talk it up. I keep some stuff quiet until it’s public knowledge, but the main motivation is to allow the author to control the release of information, and not to create too much buzz until there is a way for the buzz to turn into sales for the author. I’m not a fan of ‘coming soon’ advertising. Much appreciate your interest, and I’m sure the author will too. Do stay tuned.
It’s always nice to hear I’m (we’re; Travis is with me on this one) not the only one who struggles to be around even good kids. And I’m a teacher, for heaven’s sake! I have met the “Mommy Platoon” when I oh-so-innocently responded on a message board that I wanted to give Travis a Vasectomy for Christmas, just to be sure there weren’t any chances. I was called every name in the book, from baby-hater to selfish, dyke to un-Godly. I took it all in stride (honestly, teaching kids with behavior problems made me laugh at their name-calling. 13-year-olds with ODD are far more creative) until one of them called me a “nazi” because I wouldn’t bear children. I’m convinced these women never left the glory-days of Junior High school, because they act so childish. I left without comment, and just to be sure, I reported them to the moderator. I’m so glad you are expaning your horizons, and are dealing with level-headed people who followed typical development past school-age. Women like that do all the struggling mothers out there a favor.
Thanks, Jennifer! What made me sickest was to watch the Mommy Platoon terrorize a lot of pretty hard-working moms, establishing a sort of dominance over them, driving a lot of good content away from the site. I think a thousand words is a little much for a diaper pail, but good and sensible product reviews can be a true help. I used to taunt the Mommy Platoon without mercy, such as when I reviewed Grand Theft Auto III as a homeschooling tool. I also have taken a lot of crap for not wanting children, as if I somehow hated them. Not the case. I don’t hate children one bit; I just can only take them in small doses before I get increasingly uncomfortable. Hate is when you want someone harmed, not when you would rather be elsewhere. I know all sorts of people I do not care to be around, yet I certainly don’t hate them.